Death and resurrection

I'm not somebody that likes big changes.

I've been in the Bay Area for two-thirds of my life. I have yet to voluntarily change jobs (got laid off once). I only had one girlfriend, who is now my wife. Even traveling tends to stress me out at the beginning due to the preparation required and the tying up of loose ends needed.

Lately, God has been impressing upon me this principle: Something has to die before it can be resurrected.

Put another way by a friend: God doesn't pour new wine into old wineskins (Matthew 9:17).

Meditating on these verses lately:

John 12:24 - I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.

Luke 13:6-9 - Then he told this parable: "A man had a fig tree, planted in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any. So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, 'For three years now I've been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven't found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?'

" 'Sir,' the man replied, 'leave it alone for one more year, and I'll dig around it and fertilize it. If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.' "

Tomorrow, Shally and I will be on our way to the land down under, the largest natural structure that can be seen from space, and Middle-Earth (aka Sydney, the Great Barrier Reef, and the South Island of New Zealand) for three weeks - by my memory, the second longest time I'll have been away from home.

We'll be spending one of the weeks surrounded by scenery like this:



I'm hoping for a good time of rest, reflection, and renewal. When we get back, there are likely more changes in store in our lives, more dying that needs to be done, perhaps some working of the soil, before life can come again.

Will write again upon our return.

Quotes of the Day

Chuck Swindoll 10 Lifetime Leadership Lessons

"2) It’s dangerous to succeed. I’m most concerned for those who aren’t even 30 and are very gifted and successful. Sometimes God uses someone right out of youth, but usually he uses leaders who have been crushed.
6) Brokenness and failure are necessary."

I get the sense that I should be trying and failing more...

Interesting that 20-somethings and early 30-somethings (young, innovative entrepreneurs not tied down to tradition or family) have often been the ones succeeding in different ventures over the last ten years, even in Christendom.

British celebrity chef Jamie Oliver on men and women

“The key to life is to surround yourself with lots of women,” Oliver said. “Men would just lie to me. Girls say, ‘Give me half an hour and I’ll find out.’ They’re intelligent, more loyal and they make things happen. Everything I do is about team, really. So 90 percent of my team are women.”

Perhaps because men have a tendency to protect their fragile egos by pretending to know things rather than admitting they don't know and then getting things done?

Matt Moore on the Charlotte Bobcats and organizational makeovers

“The Bobcats are a playoff contender, and have been since Larry Brown decided to dump his best player (Jason Richardson) to Phoenix for jack-of-all-trades-master-of-awkward-spacing Boris Diaw and older than dirt Raja Bell. When that trade occurred, there was universal questioning of what in the carolina blue blazes Larry Brown was thinking. You don’t ditch your best player! But Brown understood a resounding principle of rebuilding/makeovers/reconfigurations. Whatever the core pillar is of the function that is not being successful, it is the first thing that must go."

Is this always true? Can a core pillar of one unsuccessful organization ever become a core pillar in a successful one?

Seth Godin on the Hierarchy of Success

"I think it looks like this:

Attitude
Approach
Goals
Strategy
Tactics
Execution

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Tactics tell you what to execute. They're important, but dwarfed by strategy. Strategy determines which tactics might work.

But what's the point of a strategy if your goals aren't clear, or contradict?

Which leads the first two, the two we almost never hear about.

Approach determines how you look at the project (or your career). Do you read a lot of books? Ask a lot of questions? Use science and testing or go with your hunches? Are you imperious? A lifehacker? When was the last time you admitted an error and made a dramatic course correction? Most everyone has a style, and if you pick the wrong one, then all the strategy, tactics and execution in the world won't work nearly as well.

As far as I'm concerned, the most important of all, the top of the hierarchy is attitude. Why are you doing this at all? What's your bias in dealing with people and problems?"

When hiring, most organizations don't necessarily delve too much into the top two tiers of the hierarchy. I wonder if these can be measured in any way.

Shaun Groves on making celebrities of pastors

"I don’t want the Andies to love some speaker guy’s church so much that they stop loving their own. How many guys have developed ulcers and butchered community by trying to create the church they want to lead out of the church they have been given to lead?"

I guilty of the tendency to "celebritize" well-known leaders as well.

Stability in the storm

In the midst of turbulent times in the third and fourth general priorities in my life (work and church), I'm glad for stability that I can hold onto in trusting in God (#1) and my marriage and family.

Mortifying recent experience: I have often joked about the possibility of my running over the multitudes of toddlers that are just beginning to discover the worlds right in front of my feet. Well, on Sunday at church, it became a self-fulfilling prophecy as I ran smack into a little boy who maybe came up to my knees. Fortunately, I don't think he was able to recognize me (and thus mark me as a target for future vengeance) through the cloud of tears. His mom was very gracious.

Funny recent experience: in practicing worship songs for an upcoming wedding, Mike P commented that in the Hillsongs ballad "None But Jesus", a quiet song about whole-hearted devotion (Lyrics: There is no one else for me / None but Jesus / Crucified to set me free), it was easy to confuse the "for" and "but", leading to:

There is no one else but me
None for Jesus

That has the potential of being as hilariously memorable as the faux pax from a few years ago - "I'm forsaken, because You were forsaken."

With All The Saints

I had the privilege of giving the sermon at my church 3 weeks ago, on July 26. The mp3 is now up and I published my accompanying slides for anyone interested in listening. I appreciate any feedback or criticism:



Here's a reader's digest version of the message, "With All The Saints", based on Ephesians 3:17-21:

Wouldn't the world be a better place if everyone was just like me? Thought, believed, did things like me?

If only my husband or wife would have my point of view, we wouldn't be having this fight.
If only my coworkers knew how important it is to do things my way, we'd be so much more productive.
If only everyone believed in Jesus as their Savior like I do, then we wouldn't have to evangelize.
If only the church leaders would do what I think, we'd be a better church.

Ephesians 3 sheds some light on God's intent for dealing with messy people. As a multicultural church, they had disagreements, fights, and difficulties reconciling where they came from with their new identity in Christ, and how to be the church with other believers who were otherwise nothing like them.

17-21 And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

God's goal/purpose: glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations
Our (humanity's) goal/purpose: filled to the measure of all the fullness of God, made like him
Our method: know and grasp all the dimensions of the love of Christ, which surpasses knowledge
How do we do that? Together with some of the saints you like. Together with the saints who look like you do, think the way that you do, work as hard as you do, live as morally as you do. No, it says, Together with ALL the saints. All the messy, disagreeable, stubborn, arrogant, unrepentant, first gen, second gen, saints who are still being changed by God from the inside out, some with more of a way to go than others.

We experience the fullness of God's love and glory when we are 1, not 1s.

We need to apply the gospel to ourselves (the depth and height of God's love):
Keller: “The Christian gospel is that I am so flawed that Jesus had to die for me, yet I am so loved and valued that Jesus was glad to die for me. This leads to deep humility and deep confidence at the same time. It undermines both swaggering and sniveling. I cannot feel superior to anyone, and yet I have nothing to prove to anyone. I do not think more of myself nor less of myself. Instead, I think of myself less.”

We need to apply the gospel to each other (the width and length of God's love):
width = available to all ppl, including those we don't like or want to give grace to - "Reach out to each other. Bear each other's burdens," (Gal 6:2)
length = this was God's plan all along, part of the good works he prepared in advance for us to do (Eph 2:10)

When we do this, the church becomes a hospital for the sick rather than a museum of saints, restoring broken, messy, flawed people to wholeness in Christ - and being part of that process enables us to experience the fullness of God's love and glory.

There's no such thing as a dumb question...

... is there?

I've heard that adage countless times in my life from well-meaning teachers who have drilled into us that we should always ask, as someone else in the class might have the same question. However, my experience today makes me think there are some caveats - namely, questions should stay on-subject with the material, not deviating into tangents that are only applicable to one student, and that there should probably be a base understanding of a subject before taking a class with other people who have the base understanding.

I spent most of my Saturday in a free first-time home-buyer's workshop put on by the Neighborhood Housing Services of Silicon Valley that Shally signed me up for at the library. It was pretty informative, with talks given by a realtor, lender, and insurance agent, and good questions were asked by the 50+ people in attendance, many of whom were attending to get an education certificate in order to get a loan.

However, there was one lady in the front row who seemed oblivious to the fact that the rest of the class - who, despite the good material, was keenly aware that it was Saturday and wanted the workshop to be as efficient as possible - was not interested in her very specific-to-her-own-life, TMI questions. Lady, we are not interested in hearing about how you separated from your husband, and how your elderly mom who lives with you might possibly get a job and how would this affect your loan prospects. There's a reason for one-on-one consultations.

Also, I heard and saw numerous frustrated sighs and eye rolls when she asked, "What's the difference between a condo and a townhome?"

The instructors were quite indulgent in answering all of her questions, even the inane ones, which made it even a bit more frustrating.

I guess the moral is: there may be no such thing as a dumb question (granted, it takes guts and a certain lack of self-consciousness to be willing to ask in a public forum), but it's almost always better to strive to ask good questions that will benefit the understanding of the material for the whole group. Also, it's incumbent on the instructor to filter out the good questions from the too-specific ones, and address them during the break.

The Long Saturday

Simon. Thomas. James. Andrew. Philip. Matthew. Bartholomew. Simon the Zealot. John. James son of Alphaeus. Thaddaeus.

Not yet household names, almost 2000 years ago, these men had just seen their lives go up in smoke. Their mentor, and for some, best friend, had been brutally and publicly tortured and killed the previous evening. With him had gone the dreams of freeing their people from Roman oppression, even as much as he had tried to dissuade them from those ideas.

No jobs to return to - they had quit them three years before. Wives, families, communities had all been deserted to follow a slightly kooky homeless man all around the countryside. If they returned, they would undoubtedly be the laughingstock of their towns at best, and at worst, arrested for sedition.

In the midst of an entire day and two of the longest nights of their lives, through a haze of dull despair and shattered hopes, they had to ask... what now?

It is always the darkest before the dawn.

2 months!

Wow! Time has flown since the last time I updated this thing.

A list of things that have happened in the last two months (I'll try elaborating on some of these in later posts)

• summer retreat
• USA basketball gold medal win in the Olympics
• Andrew/Andrea got married (and I acted in a live-action Korean drama)
• I moved out of Kittoe and back in with my folks for a few months prior to the wedding
• Castle Crashers became the video game of choice for a month
• began a fantasy football season where I've gotten super lucky so far
• went through a re-org at work, my job role has changed to be a bit more customer-facing
• had a nice dinner at Chez TJ w/ Shally
• began selecting leaders for Canaan next year
  

In terms of wedding planning:

• had to book a new sanctuary site
• booked the honeymoon
  
• selected slideshow pictures
• set up gift registries - a surprisingly enjoyable experience (zap! zap! zap!)
  
• ordered invitations
• reserved tuxes
• began premarital counseling

More later.

Great America

Looks like my daily blogging for August was more than a little ambitious... I'm now aiming for 15 posts for the month, or 1 every other day. Still a little behind... gotta get caught up!

On Wednesday, I got to experience a blast of nostalgia as my group at work went to Great America for a fun day. Some observations/memories:

• Tickets are $54 at the gate. Holy moly.
• It's probably a combination of being a weekday and the ticket price tag, but there aren't really any lines anywhere. I remember back in my elementary/jr high/high school days, you'd be able to get one ride on the popular coasters (Top Gun and Vortex) your entire day because the wait in line would be around an hour. On this day we walked right into the car, and some people just stayed in the coaster since no one was waiting in line.
• Speaking of which, I don't know when it happened, but GA is no longer "Paramount's Great America." Now it's just "California's Great America." I guess it lost corporate sponsorship? The most obvious impact of this in the park is seeing that Top Gun no longer exists - it's simply called "Flight Deck." None of the iconic music, no video clips... so sad.
• Rides ridden: Top Gu- I mean, "Flight Deck," Vortex, Demon, Grizzly, Whitewater Rapids. I think I used to enjoy roller coasters more than I do now. Plus, I lost my hat on Whitewater... doh.
• Neat part of the day: the company paid for an hour of free carnival games in about 9 booths next to the Drop Zone. For an hour there were around 200 engineers milling around trying their hand at shooting mini-basketballs through even mini-er hoops, throwing pitches against a radar gun, squirting water to fill up balloons, and winning prizes up the wazoo. I was able to pick up a stuffed Scooby-Doo for Shally by flinging a 63 mph "fastball" that was the fastest in my heat. The high speed for the day was 66 mph according to the game operator.
• That got me thinking - I feel like I'm in roughly average physical condition. I threw that ball just about as hard as I could, getting my whole body into it. I threw 2 pitches the whole day and felt it the rest of the day. Now, 63 mph is considered an extremely slow pitch in baseball. Maybe if I had some training and technique, I could get up to 70 mph by utilizing more leg drive. But all the same, just how ridiculously strong/genetically gifted do you have to be to throw 90+ on a regular basis, up to 100 times? How much of a toll does that take on your body?
• Fond childhood memory: coming to Great America for the 6th grade graduation field trip... and spending almost all day playing Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles in one of the arcades with a few buddies. That's right, we paid money to get into the park... so we could put more money into video games. I was Raphael. I died a lot because his special move was to keep rolling into people.
• Remember when high school physics classes would have field trips to Great America to do physics studies in real life? Why can't all classes do that?
  

"Peace"

One of the reasons why these Olympics in particular are so fascinating is because of the diplomatic tensions that exist when two nation-states meet in sports competition (often used as an analogy for war) while their respective governments and armies may in fact be engaged in actual war. How can athletes from the former Soviet republic of Georgia compete against opponents from Russia while knowing of the invasion? What is going on in the minds of Israelis, Palestinians, Iraqis, Iranians, and Americans when they stare each other down across a swimming pool, ball field, or track? Will any big names come out in the press against the nations that are not doing anything about the genocide in Darfur?

A quote from the above article:

The Beijing Olympics have morphed into the anxiety games. Beneath the veneer of architectural miracles and omnipresent smiles and the "one world, one dream" slogan, there is unease, exacerbated by a secretive Communist regime that rations information. No info, no closure. There are 100,000 Chinese security troops patrolling Beijing, all standing as still as scarecrows, many with the young, porcelain faces of toy soldiers. They are stationed on every street corner, ubiquitous under newly planted trees that line the sidewalks. They are numerically impressive but not especially comforting.

I think this further illustrates the difference between what the world defines as peace, and what the God of the Bible defines as peace.

The former declares that peace exists as long as no shots are being fired. The absence of conflict. We smile awkwardly at each other, dampening down anxiety repeatedly while little glimpses of the resentment and uneasiness simmering underneath will peek through during times of stress. This happens in sports, it happens in workplaces, in marriages, in churches.

God desires peace to be so much more than the absence of conflict, but rather the presence of justice, wholeness, and acceptance. "Blessed are the peacemakers" - peace is something that needs to be worked at, not just achieved by having no conflict.

As a person who is non-confrontational by nature, it's often easy for me to settle for the first kind of peace - as long as there's no conflict, between Shally and myself, in church, in leadership, at work, at home, then things are "cool." However, I've been learning that it's not enough to just avoid confrontation - I need to actively work for wholeness, with heavy doses of grace, in order to bring all of my relationships into the kind of peace God has his heart set on for his people.

Thoughts on the Olympic Opening Ceremony

Observations, bullet-style:

• The sheer number of people involved powering all of the spectacles in the "history of China" is awe-inspiring. Who needs fancy technology when you can train people to supply your power?
• It's kind of neat to be reminded of the scope of China's ancient history and all the contributions to the world in the areas of culture, technology, etc.
  
• There are a lot of countries that I don't even recognize in the parade...
• "Chinese Taipei"?
• Yao walking in with the little boy who not only survived the Szechuan earthquake but saved the lives of a few of his classmates... that's a heartwarming story. If an athlete can be a significant public figure to drive change or be a symbol in a nation (like Muhammad Ali in the US), I think Yao is a good candidate for China.
• These fireworks probably aren't going to help the air quality...
• That was a pretty inventive torch lighting. Although, the whole way I was thinking for the guy, "Don't drop the torch... don't drop the torch..."